Sandra Hillawi

Two Pathways Home – Which Do I Choose?

I wrote something today about two different ways people find their way back to themselves.

Two Pathways Back to My Self – Which Way Do I Choose?

As we grapple with the waves of life, our emotions show us how well we are handling it all.

When it’s a struggle, when we get blocked and stuck in our painful emotions there are two ways back

The direct way and the indirect way.

The Indirect Way

This is the way we are accustomed to. Lets see what happened that disconnected you from yourself, lets go to the places that hurt and lets heal them, with our loving attention, our masterful techniques to bring about healing and restore inner flow.

We tune in to the matrix of scar events and heal them, bringing the energy and compassionate attention needed to help bring about the movement from stuckness into flow.

That’s what we have all been doing for many years, still do and its still valid and powerful. The process however can be painful as we revisit, at least for a while, the painful past. You gotta feel it to heal it… as they say.

And then there’s another way …

The Direct Way

This is perhaps a newer way. Well, everything evolves.

A Christmas Gift of Compassion 🎁

This time of year can hold many feelings gratitude, tenderness, exhaustion, reflection, hope.

These three audio gifts are offered as a soft place to land: moments of compassion, reassurance and loving presence, shared from my heart to yours.
There’s nothing you need to do, fix or understand, simply listen, receive and allow whatever wants to gently settle.

What’s included

🎶 My Happy Christmas Thankyou blessing and prayer for you
A musical thank-you to the year that has been and a gentle blessing for the one to come.

✨ A guided Divine Compassion experience
A recorded workshop, drawn from The Compassion Experience series. In this session we have a gentle exploration of compassion — moving from human, to Legendary into a wider field of Divine Compassion.
It includes reflective elements, a meditation and references the person of Jesus as an embodiment of love and forgiveness.
You’re welcome to listen simply as a presence, pause at any time or return to it when it feels right.

There’s a quiet space in the meditation, no need to stop the recording. The group’s reflections continue afterwards.

🎶 “Future Me” — an original song
A reflective piece inviting you to sense into the self you are becoming, a reconnection within moving from disconnection to oneness and love.

Together these offerings set out below are designed to support reflection, emotional integration and quiet renewal.

How to use this gift

There’s no right way to engage with this collection.

You might:

listen in one sitting
return to a piece when you need it
use it as a reflective pause over the holiday period
or simply let it wash over you without analysing anything

Let it meet you where you are.

With love and thanks,

Sandra

🎁

You’re welcome to listen in any order — or simply begin with the Christmas blessing below.

My thanks and blessings to you for 2025 – yes, sung to you !! to enjoy and reflect 🙂

A guided Divine Compassion experience (from The Compassion Experience Series)

An original song for your heart – my words (with a little help from AI! )

A gentle invitation into the New Year

If you feel drawn to deepen this compassionate space as we move into the New Year you’re warmly welcome to explore The Compassion Experience beginning in January.

There’s no expectation … just an open door.

Gentle Powerful Energy Healing

Jane’s eye was in agony — until love became her medicine

Following surgery Jane had had problems with one eye. Pain, pressure, inflammation, and this time she had an infection, redness, swelling of the eye lid and pressure.

She had to keep one eye closed and be away from the light to keep in comfort with also the risk of losing her balance. The hospital had given her drops to take every two hours but healing was slow and trying to open her eye gave her much pain.

Enter The Energy Healer …

Its such a blessing to know how to do energy healing, which is basically healing with the focussed energy of love. So I offered to see can I help make a difference with some gentle healing. Thankfully Jane accepted.

This was in phone call by the way, I just directed Jane where to place her attention, what kind of attention to place there and what kind of intentions to hold and then to allow everything, with love. I focused with her and held the space.

Healing Begins Immediately …

This is how it went …

Starting A New Journey

Starting a New Journey

After 25 years of guiding others in energy transformation, I find myself standing at a new threshold: passion is meeting reinvention and words long silent are ready to sing.

I have not been feeling the same fire and motivation as I once did in the heyday of my career as an Energy Transformation Coach and Trainer.

For some time I’ve been in a transition space, not knowing what shape my next era would take, or whether my passion could be rekindled to drive me to share something once again valuable and needed to help us all navigate our inner journeys.

Poetry Meets AI

And then in steps AI.

Over the past 20 years, I’ve also walked a deeply personal path of love, one that has not always been easy.

Along the way, many songs and poems were born. One of them, It’s Love, I recorded in a studio in Gosport nine years ago. It was originally a gift to uplift my beloved, who was facing heart issues at the time and it was warmly received by many of my students.

You may have seen a few of my poems drift across your Facebook feed on quiet nights when I felt moved to share. But mostly these songs and poems stayed silent, resting quietly on my rarely visited blog, mysongsandpoems.com, a repository for my work, waiting for the day they might be brought to life.

These pieces mark moments in time of profound life experience. They carry the inner journeys of healing and evolution I’ve made along the way.

The Loop and The Ledger

A Midnight Scroll by Sandra Hillawi

Even in the digital wilds, love shows up as clarity and discernment. I found myself tracing blockchain trails not for profit, but to protect someone dear. This poem emerged from that journey — a reminder that love sometimes wears the cloak of a midnight sleuth.

🕯️ Whispers on the Chain

In the hush of routers and moonlight, I traced the pulse of a memecoin flame. QUQ danced on Binance winds, its buyers silent, its sellers swift.

Wallets spoke in hex and hush. One paid, one passed, another bought tokens with no face. I walked the ledger like a priestess of proof.

🧭 The Payout Trail

My offering flowed into 0xf...526e, then to f3121 — a wallet with rhythm but no name. Yet the true initiator was 75a2, a ghost in the machine buying QUQ like breadcrumbs in the forest.

📜 The CertiK Scroll

The audit was clean. No bugs, no breaks. But the score was low, and the contract — not renounced.

The owner still held the key. Not used. Not abused. But there. And that meant risk.

🧠 The Sleuth’s Creed

I wrote to a friend: “It works now. It pays. But the code is not sealed. And trust, my dear, is not a smart contract.”

🌙 Closing the Ledger

I closed my tabs, but not my vigilance. The Loop spun on. The Ledger whispered. And I — the midnight sleuth — listened.

Fun finale to a nights blockchain sleuthing caring for trusting investors…. with a little help from my AI Copilot 🙂